The life of a Christian is not a highway, rather it is filled with lot of failures, these failures are given to break our outer man so that Christ can flow out of us freely. recently before i lost appetite for God s word and i was completly dissatisfied but at the same time i could nt contact the Lord. But with Lords mercy he has brought me right on track . And many of the time we loose our hunger towards the lord because we are filled with worldly things. This is a very dangerous situation brothers and sisters. One of the example is that of the prodigal son who goes away from father and when he looses all his money, he is eating the pigs food. He is filled with the Pigs food but he is not satisfied. the pigs food are all those worldly thing which we try to fill ourselves with, (movies , games , worldly activity) , it never gives us satisfaction, but at the same time it takes away our hunger for the lord. Daily we need to pray to the Lord , Lord give me hunger for you so that i can get satisfied by you.
And also that we need to keep our heart soft towards the lord , if we are not soft in our heart , the word of God cannot penetrate into our being . Like in Matthew 13 when the sower sows the seeds on the highway, the soil is hard ,and the birds of heaven come snatch them away. we need to keep our heart soft toward the lord. Many things can make our heart hard, esp. our busy life, and trying to keep ourself busy , and also filling our mind with the worldly things and worldly affairs, if we are such , the word of God has no way to enter into our heart and work.whenever our heart becomes hard, God cannot work on us , so first God has to break us through some difficult situations so that he can infuse himself into us, but dont blame God that he Gave us bad situations, he does not do that. He some times allows Satan to traunt us but all things are working together for our Good. The Good is that we are gaining Christ in all these situations.
Recently i was very much joyed when i was reading about God s word to peter. Peter is a good example of how we sometimes fail spiritually, and peter was one of the disciple who recieved breaking of his natural man to the uttermost. He had a lot of natural love towards the lord, but it was not a good thing, he loved the lord to the uttermost from his natural man, but God does not want our love for him from our natural being , he will expose us so that he can deal with us and fill us give us a resurrected love towards Him . I was very much touched by the verse John 13 where Peter says to the Lord that I will die for you , but Lord asks back , will you die for me ? you will deny my 3 times. when this actually happened , Peter was revoked in His heart that he Gave up God even to a servant girl. So this was the situation of me in the past days , at once i said , Lord i will die for you , live my every minute for you, but later when there was some situations , i had to betray him , i had to betray him to the uttermost. at times just to look cool in front of my friends , i had to deny that i know bible , that i have such intimate fellowship with the Lord , and ashamed to say that I love the lord or even to say that i am a believer and became a terrible sinner gradually . And this words of the lord in John 13: 38 came to me, did you say that you will die for me? and then i was so pricked in my heart and could not again say that i love the Lord , i was completely hopeless and my faith leaked out and became paralyzed , i lost my prayer life , i lost my heart to read the bible , and even i could not go on, i was living a life thinking everyday , what more purpose do i have to live in this world , once i was living for God , but i gave up on God , what more do i have to do with my life . I was so pricked in my heart , i lived like this for almost 5 to 6 months. Satan gave me an illusion that my life was totally wrecked and i was full of sin and flesh and full of negative things and i am unfit . i tried to go back to the world , but i was unfit there too , could not find rest or happiness there , those were even worst things. But then, recently i just touch a verse and i was so overjoyed and just put me back on track, the verse was just the next verse , it was john 14 : 1 , it was the continuation of the last verse of john 13 :38 , where Jesus says but do not let your heart be troubled: Believe into me. OH , this verse was just a revelation to me. i was so overjoyed , God knew that i will fail , because the things which happened to me were not tests but some situations to expose me and to turn to Christ and give away our natural life and love. God knew that peter would fail , but he said it beforehand , dont worry , i know everything and its ok , you just need to give up on your self and the strenght of natural man. We dont need to do something , we just need to believe in Him , that s all he wants. Oh Lord Jesus Christ , I Love you, Lord.
